I’m Amos, 

Let me fill you in on my story and how we got here.

I grew up around love, but experiencing pain and turmoil caused me to become angry, rebellious, and wild.

Hurt and rejection fueled me and throughout my younger years I blamed God and doubted His kindness.

My family would pray for me and hope for the best; however, I was running, afraid of my shadow and made at my reflection. The search for pleasure and acceptance, coupled with pain and evil desires would bring me to dark corners and momentary lusts would never be worth the cost of admission.

Like a death spiral, I would stubbornly, travel down sin’s staircase. As the years unfolded, God’s grace would follow me down, like water down a mountain, meeting my lowest low. The love of Jesus would follow behind me in my pursuit for pleasure, waiting for my attention, and His love would go ahead of me and shield me from my destructive ways. 

After years and countless experiences, I had come to the end of myself. looking for love and fulfillment in earthly offerings didn’t satisfy. Like a divine stalemate, God had allowed me to see that everything I filled my life with, would leak out and leave me worse than before. The cure pleasure offered was killing me, and my soul was in agony.

One night I fell to my knees and cried, I was at the end of myself. Jesus, I’m sorry, save me I cried. He granted me the gift of repentance and I was finally ready to lay it all down. The problem I faced was the baggage I accumulated along the way. Like a prodigal child, I came to the cross at my worst. That’s where the love of Jesus was the strongest. 

He took the reigns of my heart and I would feel the tug and think of his mercy and grace I would be filled with gratitude and a desire to be better. The peace was undeniable.

Tears would roll down my as face as I would listen to worship music. GOD had captured my heart and the holy spirit was helping me become a better man. And this is where we meet, at the realization that true joy is found in the quest for the heart of Christ, not in fleeting pleasures. 

Thanks for taking the time to listen. I hope you’re encouraged by some of what you find here. 

God Bless and welcome to my Quest.